You want me to trust you
You want me to care
You want me to believe that no body's there?
You tell me you've changed
You've moved on from your past
1700 miles, you still think it will last?
I'm not jealous, or the kind to keep tabs
I'd like to say your flattery sinks in
Most of the time, I think you're bull-shitting again
You can call me a cynic,
It'd probably be true
I just don't know I ready to take that chance on you
You think were building from the ground up
I think were starting from a hole
Why are you so persistant? I don't even know.
It may not be fair to still hold it over your head
Your adolescent mistakes were years ago
Wishing you could change a few things now, Joe?
You've yet to hurt me
or be anything but kind
Yet I want to know exactly what is it you have in mind
You've always gotten what you wanted from girls in the past
Intrigued by the one not pursuaded by your charms?
All these months trying to convince me that I have you disarmed
I want to believe you, but I don't blindly trust
Honesty is hard to prove
Especially when back to Tuscon you'll move
For me to even contemplate the risk, there are a few things you ought to know
not in time, money, or gifts, but I'll expect a lot
I'll need to see every ounce of integrety you've got
You don't even realize that you are asking for everything
You say all you want is me to know I can rely on you
A whole series of events make that the hardest thing to do
Are you going to convince me? Am I convincing myself?
Is there a resolution? I'm not sure
I think I need to analyze this some more
About Me
- nikki
- I am a random mix of things that don't belong together. One of my friends described me as a redneck-hippie. I think country-liberal is a little more accurate, but that doesn't even start to account for the aspects of me that seem in opposition. Somehow it everything works together. I guess you'd really have to get to know me to understand the extent to which these traits have manifested themselves all in the form of me.
2 comments:
This is a very powerful poem. It seems like you are going through a rough time with someone important to you. I hope it all works out for you!
i think you should do it. the worst thing that can happen to you is it doesn't work out and you get your heart broken. don't get me wrong, that's not a fun experience, but it will add to your character if nothing else. you obviously want to give him a chance, you are just scared of getting hurt. well what if you didn't give him a chance. what if in 10 years you wonder what could have happened? i also realize that you have some understandable grudges against him... i would too. but are you the same person you were in high school? i know i'm not, and that's why i'm questioning my relationship at this point too. people change, and i'd like to think that people want to change for the better and work on fixing their flaws. think of it this way. let's say you did something really stupid/ regrettable in high school and a bunch of people saw it. what if you ran into one of those people in madison tomorrow? you wouldn't want them to base their judgement of your character on that high school incident after 4 years, would you? people change and it's fair to want to protect yourself, but no one said you couldn't give it a shot cautiously... i say go for it.
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